(Navigating the Decline of My Mom – Story #2)

I wake up this morning and am lucid dreaming. In the dream, I feel frustrated and angry, similar to how I feel about my mom’s health decline and impending death. I had wanted to have a temper tantrum at dance church a couple of weeks ago, but held back because I didn’t want to disturb the other dancers.

During a phone healing session later in the day, I share about my dream. The healer and I work through issues related to me feeling safe using my voice to express myself. At the end of the session, she suggests I get support to express my rage. She also recommends that I go into nature to do this anger release work.

I am staying at a friend’s house where I am surrounded by two acres of trees, water, flowers, bushes. It’s like a jungle. There is green everywhere I look. Plus, there is a year-round waterfall and creek which feeds into a large pond.

After my call with the healer, I decide to go outside and stand near the waterfall. I take my shoes off and feel the coolness of the earth underneath my feet. I […]